Moving along

“There is a flickering light bouncing off the table into your eyes
and I can’t help but want to catch it…” M. Ferrick

The floors are all done. Thank goodness. But you know I never knew that it would be easier to empty the rooms of all the items holding up all the spaces in between, than it is to fit it all back together again. It seems to be a very large jigsaw puzzle and well I lost a few pieces or something because nothing wants to fit and everything wants to push its way into my lap. I am clinging to the idea of tossing it all. Because really … we have to let go of things or ideas or dreams or whatever if we are to ever have new ones  find a place within us. We have a finite amount of space within ourselves or around ourselves. It’s up to us what we choose to fill up that space. Sometimes to make room, we need to rotate things out and bring new things in.

As everything is – this is easier said than done.

It’s getting close to the one year anniversary of my head injury. It is just over a month away now. And that has made me wonder … what was I thinking this time last year? What was it I was planning to do … And isn’t it so easy to have it not matter one iota because life has a way of coming in when you least expect it and tossing things around until it is all skewed and questionable. Really when you think about it, we know nothing about the future and very little about the past. And the present, well it moves along so quickly we can barely grasp it at all.

I guess the trick is to try and enjoy all of it. And try to learn something from some of it. But it can’t be that simple… can it?

turn over and lean back…

From Tioga Falls T…

sunday

I am still feeling the lingering effect of todays 2 hour group cycle class. The feeling is not as remarkable as it was after the 1st, 2nd or 3rd class but it still speaks to me in spongy-finger like ways. In fact I will be less than surprised if I doze off again before finishing this entry.

I never mentioned how great The Katie Reider band was when was that, last weekend? Or how after their 2 hour show I tossed myself into the drivers seat and made it into the next bar for the last hour of the Blue Umbrellas show. Nor did I mention how unbelievably packed to the doors and blacked out windows that particular bar was. Positively asses to elbows all about the place women and more women everywhere. A fact which is becoming more a rule than an exception when it comes to a Blue Umbrellas show.

The bar or venue where The Katie Reider band played, is more of an open sort of place in layout terms. Sometimes it reminds me of a friends basement sort of thing if their basement was quite of the large variety. One of the best things about the place, is the sitting area right across from the bar, complete with books lined for the borrowing stacked on bookshelves and an ever warming gas fireplace at the end of one of the couches. Oh and don’t let me forget to mention the fitting  ping pong table amid the pool tables. See? Just like a friends basement.

Our weather has become more normal I suppose. Today there were fits of blowing snow flurries almost making it to the frozen ground. But, I think like most of us, the flurries found the 19 degrees accompanied by an underwear searing type of wind a bit to frigid so they didn’t stay around.

Time to move my muddled mass into another chair.

Remember run with it. Even if only in your minds eye.